Sponsor |  lovingpoet | Jul 23, 2007 7:20pm | I have been dealing with a horrible feeling for the last several days. I recognize this feeling from the past. A forshadowing of something bad. I have really been torn over weather or not to post anything about this. As I do not want to come across as alarmist. I have no clue as to what, where or when...all I have is this feeling. No reason for it to be. But I have felt it before, and always noted it after the fact...that it was a warning of sorts...or maybe it was just me...feeling the pain before it happens.
I am interested to know if anyone else out there relates to this...and if so...how might you be feeling lately?
I also want to add, that this feeling has been acompanied to by very vivid dreams...of a disturbing nature. I have had premenatory dreams before...always of a personal nature...these were not like that...so I am "confused" to say the least...it's like too much information coming in at once to make any sense of it all. |
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Sponsor | | Bohemian-Spirit | Jul 23, 2007 7:42pm | LP. Is this something bad for you personally, a loved one or friend, or is it something more wide spread that affects many?
I haven't been feeling any more anxious than usual, but this feeling has been normal for me for a very long time because of life situations. I may not be in tune right now to what is going on outside of my own energy field right now. |
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Sponsor | | lovingpoet | Jul 23, 2007 7:52pm | | All I can say for certain, is that it is something that will effect me profoundly. It has been in, the past, something "wide spread" as you said...and it has also been something personal...(different occasions) I have never made "public" note of the feelings before. And I guess, the fact that I have no clear idea as to what it relates to yet...is why I was not sure if I should say anything at all. But talking about it (typing about it) is helping me deal with how I feel... |
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Sponsor | | Bohemian-Spirit | Jul 23, 2007 9:45pm | | 3. Keep us posted on your dreams. This might be a good thread in HSP, too. Just a thought. |
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Sponsor | | lovingpoet | Jul 23, 2007 9:58pm | I'll trust digits judgment on that...I have no problem with it.
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July 27th
Heading toward 2am...can't sleep...these dreams keep lending them selves to life and death situations...but before they play out...I wake.
I know there are meanings behind dreams...and I think someone should start a thread on that...but this has been going on for over two weeks now...and the feelings and moods are carrying over into the day...
There have been some changes in my personal life...profound...yet not to me directly...so I do not think that has anything to do with this...I still feel there is something on the wind (so to speak) |
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Sponsor | | digits | Jul 27, 2007 6:03am |
LovingPoet - I feel this is quite stressful for you. I understand the sense of impending doom all too well - as WELL as dream states [ feelings, moods, remembering] carrying over into real life. [Only to unfortunately - with the prophetic dreams - lending themselves to some version of reality.]
What you are experiencing LP is an extreme and sublime example of [what I would tem as "classic"] HSPness. All I can offer is what I have done in these situations and [again unfortunately] I still do not know what precisely to do...though here's what I've done:
- I've put in a chakra balancing CD/cassette tape [Doreen Virtue's Chakra Clearingis the one I used 3, sometimes 4 times a day]. I say this because I believe in negative energy becoming attached to me due to my empathic nature.
- I also inventoried. I took a look and wrote down all things in a free association type of way...[I decided to write for 10 minutes even if I had "nothing" to say]...that came into my mind.
- I also called and "checked on" people who "are mine." [People I claim in spirit. Friends, family members...] Even if I'd not spoken to them in ages.
What is very sad is that the last time I had the feeling so remarkably and did nothing [while I was still drinking] except open up more alcohol trying to drink the thing away, a relative killed himself. Someone very close to me. As close as a daughter can be to a father.
The next time I got that feeling my Mimi was pronounced as good as dead in the hospital. Knowing I couldn't go through with another death of someone so connected to me, I went to the bathroom [I was not yet sober but almost] and prayed....something to the extent of "We've not finalized with each other." My Mimi and I, at that point, had not been on great terms ever since I moved out in a huff. I prayed like mad and said, "I need a little more time."
Less than 6 months later I would get sober. Less than 6 months after that she and I would have our finalizing/forgiveness/release talk and become closer than ever. Then she went peacefully. As grief-stricken I was, I knew that I had been granted this favor - for her sake as well as mine.
I do not mean to scare you with these two particular sad cases except to point out [remind myself?] that when I have had those feelings and did nothing but try to numbe them nothing good came. It affected me so badly with my male relatives death that [although still drinking daily] I vowed to not ignore things like that again. I didn't ignore it with my grandmother and as a result...I got sober AND we made our peace. [I can then feel grief at her loss as opposed to guilt - which is a bullshit and unclean feeling.]
If there is anything I can do to help ...anything at all...please let me know. Just don't *not do nothing* and I think the universe will reveal more to you. I believe we are gifted with the feelings for a reason. Otherwise it'd be a bad curse adnd I don't think the universe makes curses. I believe "I" make curses.
Love and Light gentle soul! xoxoxo |
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Sponsor | | Bohemian-Spirit | Jul 27, 2007 6:59am | LP. Unfortunately I have nothing to offer other than my support and love. I'm not good at interpreting dreams, although I agree that they are messages of a sort, whether it be from our subconscious or some other source.
Have you tried meditating on the feelings you have rather than the actual content of the dreams? Are the feelings stronger at certain times of the day or when you are around certain people or places? Tuning into your feelings this way may lead you to some answers as to what or who these dreams are referring.
Just a thought. Wish I could be more helpful, but if there is anything you need that I can provide, I'll echo Digits here...please let me know.
BTW...I don't have permission to PM you, but I wanted to tell you that I love the newest avatar. |
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Sponsor | | digits | Jul 27, 2007 9:02am | | Haha...yes, LP. I read your message and then saw your avatar - it seems to match. ;) |
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Sponsor | | Bohemian-Spirit | Jul 27, 2007 8:23pm | LP. A tragedy occurred today in Phoenix. I know you aren't connected with Phoenix directly, but I was wondering if your dreams had anything to do with flying, helicopters, policy, news??? I have the story on my first page if you need some background on why I ask. You said that you weren't sure what your dreams were relating to.
The reason I ask is that some of the circumstances about this event are very strange in my opinion.
1. One of the pilots of these helicopters ALWAYS took his beautiful little dog "Molly" on his flights. This ONE TIME, he left her behind at the hangar.
2. The helicopters crashed in a park at lunchtime. By all rights there should have been people on the ground where they crashed, but there were NOBODY was hurt or killed on the ground. |
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|  penelopelemon | Jul 28, 2007 11:26am | lovingpoet, I to tend to feel hesitation when I'm compelled to communicate these feeling with others. Somehow responsible for not only saying it out loud but also the happening itself. Thank you for voicing what some of us have been feeling, and for sharing. I would like to offer an open ear and heart, not only to you here in the forums but to anyone who would like to communicate thoughts and feelings that some may feel are not appropriate to explore in a public arena, just yet.
I love your suggestions digits, calming music and stream of consciousness writing helps me work through the seemingly random images and feelings that I am at times unable to put my finger on. |
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